It doesn't get better

Ricky L. · 11-03-2007, 02:29 PM

I don't know if any of uou knew this, but I have been depressed for a very long time now. It seems like I am just sinking and going nowhere. Theres no light at the end of the tunnel for me, nothing to look forward too. It just gets worse. Im tired of living this lie. Trying to pretend like im ok. When im not. I have no friends anymore, at all. I have no one to lean on, no one to confide in. No one loves me. I dont have a girl in my life, and I really never did. Im almost 20 too. I am so lonely. It eats me up alive. Why cant I have someone in my life. Why can others be happy but I cannot. Why do I always have to be alone. I just cant handle it. Im tired of ashameing everyone in my family. My whole family thinks I am a failure. Always got in trouble, always got bad grades, they hate the way i look, my long hair, how im girly, how Im bisexual, how they have to pay all this money because i was arrested for weed. Im tired of disapointing my parents. My father never believed in me. He would always yell at me and hit me and tell me how much of a fuck up I am and how disapointed in me he was and how he cant believe that he went so wrong in raising me.I hate my parents so much. I really hate my dad. I would love it so much if they both died. I know they would love if if I died. Im a burden to them. Im tired of drifting along like this. Everyone would be better off and so much happier if I just went away, forever. and died. They would be so relieved, that they wouldnt have to worry about me anymore. And I wouldnt ashame them any longer. I Just dont have the strength to go on any longer.

Gag · 11-03-2007, 02:51 PM

Dude, if you're going to write a suicide letter at least use proper punctuation.

Also, I'm calling bullshit on this.

And I'm neg repping you again, just as soon as I spread some around.

TheDriver · 11-03-2007, 02:53 PM

We are you're new family now, and I'm your new father. You're mother will be the bagman, and your older brother will be taco. Tomo will be your girlfriend. Problems solved.

taco · 11-03-2007, 03:04 PM

*older brother gut punches shiVers.*

TheBagman · 11-03-2007, 03:04 PM

Pube will be his therapist. Just let us all begin the healing now please.

taco · 11-03-2007, 03:06 PM

*taco punches mommy in the vagina*

Gag · 11-03-2007, 03:15 PM

So what I get to play no part in his damaged life?
Well fuck all ya'll niggas.

TheBagman · 11-03-2007, 04:03 PM

You can be the priest who has been molesting him since age 9.

Gag · 11-03-2007, 04:37 PM

Suffer the little children come unto me, eh Shitvers? ;D

**pube** · 11-03-2007, 06:14 PM

I wrote a better fake suicide letter, damn

**pube** · 11-03-2007, 06:16 PM

Listen Up Dumbfucks:

Most people kill themselves because of a mental condition. This is true in my case too. The condition I suffer from is that I am not normal, I am not like everyone of you "sane" people.

I am not normal in the sense that I am not like every other one of you brain-dead zombies. I can think. I can reason intelligently. I can observe and learn from life. I can make my own decisions and follow through on them. And I can do these without any aid from celebrities, T.V. or radio. Unfortunately, every one of you shit-brained lemmings seem to lack these skills and I can't fucking take it any more.

Since everyone else in this world is a fucking retarded drone who revels in their ignorance and unintelligence, I must put an end to my misery. I truly wish I was normal. I wish I could be a fucking retarded sponge like all of you. I wish I could have the same conversations day in and day out about sports, politics and "how about that weather huh?". But I can't.

Sure you'll see this note and say Ricky L.'s the crazy one. You have to it's the only way you can go on thinking you're sane and your pathetic life is meaningful. Go ahead, call me the weirdo like everyone else surely will. Then return to your happiness of everyday mindless monotony.

My only wish is that the bullet I put into my brain doesn't kill me but only leaves me brain dead. For if ignorance is bliss and everyone of you fuck-for-brains is truly happy, then living a life without a brain stem in a coma, devoid of any cognitive ability must surely be utopia.

Leave My Machine Plugged In You Fucking Retards,

Ricky L.

P.S. If you get a collect call from a cow in India in the next couple years, accept the charges.

ßü††|ë§§ · 11-03-2007, 07:23 PM

Originally Posted by Ricky L.

I don't know if any of uou knew this, but I have been depressed for a very long time now. It seems like I am just sinking and going nowhere. Theres no light at the end of the tunnel for me, nothing to look forward too. It just gets worse. Im tired of living this lie. Trying to pretend like im ok. When im not. I have no friends anymore, at all. I have no one to lean on, no one to confide in. No one loves me. I dont have a girl in my life, and I really never did. Im almost 20 too. I am so lonely. It eats me up alive. Why cant I have someone in my life. Why can others be happy but I cannot. Why do I always have to be alone. I just cant handle it. Im tired of ashameing everyone in my family. My whole family thinks I am a failure. Always got in trouble, always got bad grades, they hate the way i look, my long hair, how im girly, how Im bisexual, how they have to pay all this money because i was arrested for weed. Im tired of disapointing my parents. My father never believed in me. He would always yell at me and hit me and tell me how much of a fuck up I am and how disapointed in me he was and how he cant believe that he went so wrong in raising me.I hate my parents so much. I really hate my dad. I would love it so much if they both died. I know they would love if if I died. Im a burden to them. Im tired of drifting along like this. Everyone would be better off and so much happier if I just went away, forever. and died. They would be so relieved, that they wouldnt have to worry about me anymore. And I wouldnt ashame them any longer. I Just dont have the strength to go on any longer.

here we go again.

Originally Posted by TheDriver

We are you're new family now, and I'm your new father. You're mother will be the bagman, and your older brother will be taco. Tomo will be your girlfriend. Problems solved.

Thankyou for having left me out of this circus.

Originally Posted by taco

*older brother gut punches shiVers.*

Hit him again!

Originally Posted by taco

*taco punches mommy in the vagina*

I hope you wrapped that rascal.

Originally Posted by Gag

So what I get to play no part in his damaged life?
Well fuck all ya'll niggas.

Why you would want any part of that defies conventional wisdom.

Gag · 11-03-2007, 07:26 PM

Originally Posted by ßü††|ë§§

here we go again.

Thankyou for having left me out of this circus.

Hit him again!

I hope you wrapped that rascal.

Why you would want any part of that defies conventional wisdom.

Are you kidding me?
Being the pastor who has been sexually abusing him for a solid decade now I've added more than my share to his suicidal tendancies.

In my books, that's a brag worthy accomplishment.