[Boondock]

he died on the 9th. when i got to inidana i played an audio tape that he made for me. first words out of his mouth were "august 9th"
also, what i was told on the phone was not true.

when they found him, she was laying on his bed, facin a picture of his father. he was holding a pic of him and his sister and he was laying beside a pic of my son and a couple other pics. that all seems a little strange to me.

he talked about doing it all the time he just never said how. i know he had a little fridge in his rom that was full of dope luke ketamine and fenobarb

i think my aunt knows too because she was adamant that there was no autopsy. on my way home i called and requested an autopsy but i had to leave a mesage. i got home and went to sleep, as i had just been on the road for 6 hours there and back. i woke up hours later and there were 5 messages on my phone and they said they had to talk to me first before they could do the autopsy. the last one was since i didn't call back they closed it and there will be no autopsy.

thd deputy sheriff did call me back and said they took blood from him but results are gonna take 6 weeks. so in 6 wekks i'll get the toxocology and i'l know for sure even though i'm pretty sure already.


i thought it was automatic that when someone died that an autopsy be done and he said they are only done if there is suspicious cercumstances.


that tells me that my aunt or someone cleaned up a little bit cause if the coroner/sheriffs would have got there and seen him laying on his bed with his pictures around him they would have thought suicide. they would have then had to do an autopsy and investigate to make sure it was suicide.


my aunt was so pissed at me that i requested an autopsy. all she was saying was let it go, why are you doing this.

fuck that. why do i have to yield to her. he was my father and i wanted to know.

but, i missed the phonecalls and the autopsy wasn't done but i'll get toxology results in 6 weeks and i'm pretty sure i know what i'm gonna find

[moogman]

Shit Boon, Im so so so so sorry man really, If you need a shoulder man im here ok?

[MexicanGreen]

all your gonna need is toxicology anyway. They don't do it in a case like your dad when he had a prearranged(i'm assuming), and if he was in his bed and had a disease like you had said and esp. if your aunt covered up the pics and all that..... weird situation boon, its gotta be tough if u need to talk hit me up man. even if its about guns or sumin to get yur mind off shit

[Boondock]

it is a wired situation but i'm more pissed than anything. my audio tape was about 2 minutes long and it was all him saying pretty mean shit to/about me

i'm doing allright just pissed about a bunch of stuff.

i can't believe i have to wait 6 weeks for toxocology but you're right mexi, thats all i'll need and i know that. an autopsy would have got me results a lot faster

[gilligan]

Thats terrible man.

[MexicanGreen]

i haven't talked to my dad for atleast 6yrs i dont think i ever had feelings for him so i dno what yur goin threw right now man, and seems like every problem you could have run into has come up. i hope shit starts goin right for u pretty soon dude, try to keep yur head up high and look for light at the end of the tunnel

[Boondock]

it's been pretty shitty. we were trying to build a relationship the past few years but we never had one. it wasn't all smiles like you saw from the few pics i posted and well, according to what he said on that tape, he really didn't feel much for me.

i'm cool though..just ognna do my regular thing...gonna go get inked on sunday and got a few sketches for some new shit....gonna keep drawing and take my wife to the zoo and shit

[Mustard]

Originally Posted by Boondock

...according to what he said on that tape, he really didn't feel much for me.

Man, I'm sorry to hear about all of this, but that right there man... thats gotta cut deep. I'm sorry about everything boon.

[Pigwax]

what can i say except... this situation sucks...

i guess if he was in immense pain, suicide doesn't seem that far out... but i'd want to know too...

try not to think about the relationship too much... every father and son has an unspoken "bond", even if it doesn't seem like it... and when they die, theres nothing you can really do to help anything, except think about times you felt proud to be in his family...

i think i'm gonna go smoke one of my nicaraguan cigars...

[sleepy]

wow, Boon. i dont even know you... or the circumstances, but i'm shocked and deeply sorry for you and your faily. please take it easy and keep your spirits up.

[luvSUBLIME]

Originally Posted by Boondock

it wasn't all smiles like you saw from the few pics i posted and well, according to what he said on that tape, he really didn't feel much for me.

Wow...I'm so sorry boon. I know you don't know me, but i've been lurking for a while...and the only think i can say is to try not to take that tape to heart. Since he made it that day, he very well could have already been feeling whatever he possibly took and that definitely could have altered what he wanted to say to you. Even though this was a real shitty way for him to do it, it could also be his way of helping you to move on with his inevitiable death. He obviously had love for you...he wouldn't have asked you to come visit if he didn't. I'd bet a lot of it has to do with maintaining that tough-guy persona even to the grave...doesn't want you shedding tears over him even if doing so requires him to make a tape like that.